Wandering, seeking

So often in life we find ourselves wandering. Wondering. Seeking. Questioning. “What is next?” “What went wrong?” “What should I do now?”

These are legitimate questions. And they come from a place of brokenness and desperation. This might feel like a dark and depressed place to be, but it actually might be the most perfect place to be. In this place of confusion and not knowing we can and should be driven to our knees and driven to find the One who has the answers to all of life’s problems.

I don’t know why it is so hard to go to the One who will always, every-time have all that we need and will freely give it to those who ask Him, but for some reason it is. And so God uses overwhelming circumstances to show us our inadequacies and to reveal His own Sovereignty over all that is. And so when you find yourself wandering: seek the Lord. When you find yourself confused and defeated, look to the Victor. When you realize that you are at the end of your rope, stop grasping for things that will never really save you, and finally let the Lord catch you, save you, preserve you and restore you. Let God be God and stop trying to appear to have it all together. God knows you don’t have it all together and others know it too. It is a much more beautiful thing to see a person seeking refuge in the arms of God than to see someone flailing and self-destructing because they simply can’t let go.

Trust me, I know how hard this is. But when you finally let go, then God can and will catch you!

Our desperate state

We are so completely dependent. Though we think we are autonomous, self-governing, independent beings, when we boil it all down: we are desperately needy for … God.

We are not merely in need of a few blessings or provisions from His hand. No, we are desperate for His glory, His face, His Spirit, His presence! Joy is not something God gives us to put in our pocket and carry around a while. Love is not something we can frame and mount on our walls. Peace is not something that we can hang on our neck. All of these “things” flow out of His character and His presence.

If everything in our lives went exactly as we thought it should but we did not dwell daily in His Presence, we would be miserable creatures with no peace, no freedom, no joy and no hope!

However, if everything in our life appears to be “upside-down” and nothing is going according to what we think is “good” but we are ever, always at Jesus’ feet and abiding in Him, then nothing will be able to discourage, disarm or destroy us!

The mystery of the gospel is this:

  • When we are weak, He is strong.
  • When we are empty, He fills us.
  • When we have nothing, He can be our everything.
  • When we suffer, He uses that suffering to bring us joy and peace.
  • When we know nothing and can do nothing, He becomes our All in all!

If you are struggling today: give up! Let go! Surrender! Let God bring you into His divine Presence, and let His incomparable power, unfathomable love, and His amazing grace redefine everything you thought you knew about life.

Oh Lord, I am desperate for You!

I don’t have a clue

A post about ministry, His presence, and knowing what to do.

 

I write this blog post with a dose of fear that I may be misunderstood or even maligned as a result. And yet I write this article in the hope that it will help someone walk closer to the Lord.

 

Do you know what you are doing? I mean really know? Many of us have some degree of knowledge of what we are attempting, the purpose for which we are attempting it and possibly what the end result might be, but do we really know what we are doing?

Can we say with judgment day honesty “Yes, I am currently living out the will of God in my life and ministry exactly as He would have me do it”? Is every word spoken exactly as He would have us? Is every look, touch, gesture exactly as He would do it? Can we say with absolute certainty that we are doing the exact things that God wants us to do exactly when and how He wants us to do them?

If we are honest with ourselves we must say “no”. Not everything we do is done with a perfect knowledge or understanding. Not everything we do is done exactly as God would have us to do it. This of course has to do with a multitude of reasons: impure motives, poor listening skills, living in a fallen world, outside distractions and detractors, etc.

Furthermore as ministers of the gospel of Jesus Christ we are availing ourselves to Him that He might still have a physical body and presence on earth in addition to His Spiritual Presence. Ministry is that attempt to go where Jesus would go, speak His Words, extend His touch and share His love with the whole world. How in ministry do we know if we are doing the right things? Are we certain that both as Christians and as His church we are actually using His time to His glory or are we squandering His time with our pitiful attempts at accomplishing sometime significant for Him?

These are difficult questions. And all of them actually beg yet another question: Can we really know and do the will of God in this life?

The answer is yes. We can know God’s will and we can live like Jesus in this life! But this is only possible as we abide in His Presence. In His Presence He reveals, in His Presence He instructs, in His Presence He empowers and in His Presence He guides. All that we are powerless to do in our own strength and wisdom and according to our own plans is possible in His Presence.

That doesn’t mean that He will reveal it all to us, or that He will necessarily reveal it to our own satisfaction, but He will reveal what is necessary in His perfect way and His perfect time. And so we must wait. In the waiting He shapes and forms us. In the waiting we become broken, humble and open to His words and will. In the waiting we learn that we don’t need to know anything more than Him.

So basically I am telling you: in my life and in ministry, I don’t have a clue as to what to do; except this: wait at His feet and do whatever He says. And if/when I mess up, I simply go back to His feet and ask Him to show me the error of my ways and once again fix/redeem my mess. So I don’t know what He has for me next year, next month, tomorrow or even 5 minutes from now. But what I know is that right now He wants me to wait in His Presence and He will reveal to me what He so chooses in His time.

 

Life and the Presence of God

What is this life really about? Have we forgotten? Have we ever really known?

Is this life about feelings and experiences? Is it about love and friendship? Is this life about making something of it?

These are all small parts of the much bigger whole. Each of these things are snippets of the full life that God really intends. And none of these parts make a life complete, but rather are simply expressions of God grace in our lives.

What truly complete us, what truly fulfills us is dwelling in the Presence of the Lord! Being with God and He in us is the only true reality of life “to the full”. In Christ we have life, in Him we have love, peace and joy. In Christ we have forgiveness. In Christ we have grace and mercy. In Christ our chains are broken and our hearts are set truly free!

And once we begin abiding in Him and He in us; once we learn to wait at His feet and let Him truly take away all of our burdens and doubts and fears; once we discover the peace that passes all understanding when we live ever and always in His presence, then everything changes. Our experiences with other people take on new meaning and importance. Our feelings about circumstances are changed and our emotions themselves are sanctified! The way we think of love and give and receive love changes as well how how we approach friendship.

When God is with us and in us, our perceptions are heightened, our emotions are more robust, our heart is filled to overflowing for Him and neighbor, our fears are stilled and our spirit explodes with joy!

So if you are one of the 7 billion people in the world who ask yourself at sometime or another: “what is my life all about”? I challenge you: sit at the feet of Jesus, wait: for minutes, hours, days, and a lifetime and let God fill you “to the very measure” with the fullness of Himself; and then watch as He strips away the ugly, decaying, dead things and brings unstoppable, Spirit-filled, eternity-changing life into you!

A resolution of consecration, surrender, waiting and obeying

So it’s that time again. The time when we make resolutions: we resolve to do something we have not done before (or at least not recently or well). And yet I myself am curious and wary about these resolutions. Why do we want to do certain things now? Why haven’t we been doing them before? And above all: what does God have to say about these areas of our lives we are resolving to change?

Scripture reminds us that unless the Lord builds the house, the builders labor in vain who build. So are we attempting things apart from the Holy Spirit of God? Furthermore are we actually doing the things that God wants done or are we merely asking for God’s blessing and seal of approval on something we want done?

Don’t get me wrong. I don’t thing resolutions are a bad thing. But much of the time they do seem misplaced and many times they go completely unfulfilled because of impure motives, lack of discipline, arrogance regarding our own ability, and so on and so forth.

But what if we made this one resolution this year: what if we resolved to do nothing until we had waited at the feet of Jesus for His Spirit, His direction, His will, His revelation, His wisdom and His power? What if we resolved (settled once for all) that our whole life would center around Him and by grace (and the faith that comes by grace) we would refuse to live any other way?!

In the next 6 to 12 weeks many of us will start and stop many things that we have “resolved” to do. Most of the things we will attempt without God and next January we will yet again be filled with much guilt and regret over things poorly done or neglected altogether. But if we decide now that we will always and only do what Jesus directs us to do, then perhaps one year from now we will find ourselves that much closer to God, more filled with His Spirit, more overflowing with His fruit and more fulfilled in our life and calling than ever before!

I resolve: as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord!

“So what do you do for your real job?”

So I have been thinking about what pastors do with their time and energy. I can’t tell you the number of times that I have been asked what I do when it is not Wednesday or Sunday. People love to joke that pastors only work two days a week and golf every other day except for when there are funerals and weddings.

So what is it that we pastors do with all that “free time”? I too think about what we pastors find to fill the time, but I think about it in a slightly different way. I know that there are pastors that perhaps don’t manage their time well and others perhaps who have an underdeveloped work ethic (lazy?), but many pastors I know also work hard. They study, pray, call on parishoners, work on the behind the scenes aspects of ministry and program development, stay on call 24/7 and otherwise serve as the resident cheerleader, spiritual coach/trainer, counselor and accountability partner for many people and congregations. But what I think about alot is this: do pastors really do the right things? And what are the rights things? And should we all be doing the same things, or does it differ for each of us?

I would contend that the primary responsibility of pastor is that of priest: one who goes to God on behalf of the people and to the people on behalf of God. This role’s primary function is as a prayer warrior and resident intercessor. The pastor should spend a great deal of time in the prayer closet, prayer room, and at the altar as one who bears the burdens of the people before the Father!

Only after this role has been lived out should a pastor then move on to another important role: that of prophet. A prophet is one who is the mouthpiece of God. They are called and designated by God to bring His messages to all whom He sends them to. Since God’s words are eternal this is perhaps one of the most important tasks that any pastor can do. And the role of prophet flows directly out of that of priest. Without a pastor drawing close to God there is no way he or she can stand before the people with a message.

As the first two roles are lived out and then as the Lord directs the pastor should then thirdly pursue his or her role as that of shepherd. A shepherd is one who leads the flock to green pastures for nourishment, beside still waters for rest and renewal, through the valleys of life as guide and comforter and who overcomes the Enemy and serves as the protector of the flock. In contemporary times all of these functions are realized mostly through words of instruction, Biblical counseling, discipleship and accountability. And so yet again the pastor is to pray, prepare heart and mind through study and meditation and speak as God directs.

Lastly, the pastor should be a servant leader. In a sense this is the last role and in a way it is the over-arching and primary role. The pastor should lead his or her people by example. The church should see their pastor as under-shepherd of the Great Shepherd. The people ought to see the pastor learning and growing and becoming more like Jesus. They should be able to follow their pastor as their pastor follows Jesus.

So I am sure now that what the pastor actually does is as clear as mud to you.

One thing you may notice is that the pastor shouldn’t spend much time developing or working on ministries and programs. God calls and equips many ministers to these tasks, but the pastor ought to first and foremost be priest, shepherd and servant-leader.

Unfortunately I myself have often spent an unhealthy amount of time on administrative tasks. Making sure everything is organized, well communicated and that all the church business is handled has diminished or perhaps even crippled the spiritual roles of many pastors. Instead the pastor’s primary responsibility is to connect people to God and be one of God’s instrument of grace among the people. The pastor should spend the majority of his or her time seeking out God’s will for self, family and church and preparing heart and mind to be used of God among the people.

If the pastor himself or herself never completes certain projects and leads certain programs or ministries that are resume’ worthy but always leads the people to the feet of Jesus, that pastor is a success in their ministry!

Success in ministry?

In ministry how do we really know if we are doing the right things. How do we know if we are actually getting any where, gaining any traction, making any difference? In weight loss you know if you are doing something right if the scale says you have lost weight (or if the pants are more loose today than yesterday). In physical training you can tell if you are getting somewhere if you can add on more weight to the dumbbell than you could yesterday. Even in dating you can tell if you are making progress if you get a kiss on the cheek when you drop her off. But how do you know if you are making progress in ministry?

Is it only when there are more people present? Is it when the offerings go up? Is it when there are new faces? Has it been a ‘successful’ day if someone comes to the altar?

Furthermore, how do you know if the fruit that you are seeing is from what you are doing or from something else altogether?

Does this mean then that the success of ministry is something that really cannot be gauged? Could it be that ministers need to simply leave all measure of success to God? But what of fruit inspecting?

We know of course that we should only being doing the things that God has directed us to do, and of course by listening to the Spirit we can/will be checked when we do something wrong. We do need to inspect fruit but I daresay the most important fruit is the Fruit of the Spirit and obedience to the Great Commission and the Great Commandment not the number of people who became members last year or the average attendance. If the New Testament church had kept average attendances the numbers and stories would have been skewed. It is awesome to know that 3000 were added to their number in one day. But it is also amazing to know when one family get’s saved and baptized. And the point wasn’t to average those events and compare it to what happened in the upper room, but rather to experience the fullness of God in each of those moments and praise God for His saving grace!

So I wonder if some key questions that we should be asking in our search for health and growth and maturity in our ministries and churches are:

  • Do we hear testimonies of God’s moving?
  • Do we see His glory on people’s faces?
  • Is there a sensitivity to the Spirit?
  • Is there a burden for the lost?
  • Is there a passion for prayer?
  • Is there a hunger and thirst for the Word of God?
  • Is there a God-motivation to help and serve others?

I think that a church with these qualities might just be a church that experiences revival!

On our desperate need for God

My mind (and heart and spirit) keeps returning to thoughts of the glory and beauty of God and our desperate need for Him.

I simply cannot get away from the nothingness that we are apart from Him and how pitiful and pathetic our gestures are apart from Him. We were made by God, for God and intended to dwell in God and He in us. When we attempt things apart from Him we are attempting to create ex nihilo (out of nothing) and that is simply not possible. Scripture reminds us that it is in Christ that we live and move and have our being. Attempting to operate apart from Him is trying to work without life, love, peace, joy, grace, goodness and a million other things that flow from the heart and character of God.

Church apart from God is an abomination as it takes what was created only for His glory and makes it a mockery through religious exercises, human wisdom and human traditions. If we attempt to be the church without God’s presence, who are we worshiping? Who are we praying to? For what reason are we gathering?

Life apart from God is an impossibility because God is the giver of life and we only have life because His breath is within us. Life apart from God is hollow, depressing, the walking dead. Life apart from God is full of anxiety, worry and fear and a million other things that are opposite of the character and heart of God. In other words, life without God is death and hell.

So why do we try to handle things on our own? Why do we try to make things look good and sound good to other people, when God sees right through the house of cards we have built? What does it matter what the world thinks or if we gain the whole world, if we don’t have God?

And need I remind you that we don’t receive the presence of God because we wish for it, think about it, understand the theology of it or because we have certain spiritual exercises or disciplines that make us feel holy or pious. Receiving the presence of God is waiting for the presence of an actual living Being, who has His own thoughts, emotions and will. We cannot manipulate or coerce God into coming into our lives so that we can somehow have life and church. We must wait for and before God, trusting that He will reveal Himself in the way and in the time that He knows is right. When we are broken and surrendered fully and always unto Him, He not only graces us with His presences but invites and allows us to live in Him and He in us! And so then in response to our desperate cries comes His gracious and glorious habitation!!

Let us wait for the Lord!

Even so, Lord Jesus Come!

What we need for Christmas

We each have our lists of what we want for Christmas. And perhaps some of us are the responsible types that only ask for what we ‘need’ on our Christmas list. But I want to take a moment to talk about what we really need for Christmas:

We need the Lord. We need His presence. We need His Spirit. His gifts are nice. We are grateful for the talents He has given us to use and to invest for His glory. We ought to be overwhelmed with gratitude at the blessing and favor that He has bestowed upon us again and again. But most importantly we need His presence. When Jesus came to earth, He was known as Immanuel, God with us. We have forgotten this. Or perhaps we think that God was with the disciples but not so much with us. What we need for Christmas is a fresh encounter with “God with us, Immanuel”. And no, we don’t need this encounter through a nice Bible story, sermon or church service, as good as those things are. We need to encounter the Living God in the presence of His Holy Spirit. We need for Christmas to realize that the greatest gift ever given is when God gave us Himself! And when He gave us Himself, He gave us love, righteousness, holiness, compassion, glory, power and so much more! God wants to continually pour Himself into our hearts if we will but ask Him and wait and receive His promised Holy Spirit! I challenge you: this year ask God for one thing only, and ask Him again and again: “Lord, please, give us Your Spirit”!

A call to prayer and fasting

Isaiah 43:19 says: “See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?” The Lord is calling His church to again be a people who call on the name of the Lord in desperation, hunger and thirst, in need and in humility. God wants to bring revival into our midst that many (if not all of us) have never seen or known, but only read about or heard about. That revival is a moving of His Spirit on His people. He is asking us to wait on Him. (Psalm 37:7)

 

And so I am asking you to join me in calling out to God on behalf of His people. The church is struggling not because of lack of plans, resources, people, buildings, or vision but because a lack of the power and glory of God. And these things don’t come because of something we do, but rather they come when we wait before God. His Spirit comes when we humble ourselves and wait and pray. And so I am asking you to call on the Lord like you never have before. To call on Him in desperation and ask Him to humble us, break us and have His way in us.

 

God is speaking to me about Joel and the call He gives to His people for a holy fast. Please, take time to read Joel and join me in this prayer and fasting that God would again send His Spirit upon us. When we wait on the Lord we have all that we need and even the business and ministry of the church is handled in His time and His way without our meager efforts standing in His way.

 

Even so, Lord Jesus come!